Gosh…. have been mia-ing for like almost …. 3 months!!! OMG!!! What have I been busying with ….

Days just seems to pass by so quickly…. firstly I ended my work-life with the firm whom I’ve been with for the past 8 years… it was not disheartening to part at all but a new start-up for me … something refreshing was what I had thought … a sense of relief to have finally handover all the work to my successor … a sense of accomplishment … to have reach this far in a firm … and now I’ve moved on to another firm … althou the workload is really a challenge for me but I just that was the same everywhere whenever anyone start anew … I guess….

Subsequent I had a two weeks break before starting on the new job … and hubby and I went to Taipei for a short break … as we had been to Taiwan a couple of times … we basically went there without any aim and just walked around and eat the street foods etc …. weather was cold .. as it had been raining… although we have been there a few times… I think we’ll still go back there .. probably next time won’t choose winter or spring time….

Then new environment at new work place everything just need to be adjusted in order to feel at place… new systems… new clients… etc… probably bcos i’m just to merticulous? I had to do everything very hands-on … so I guess it was pretty tedious… hopefully things get better …

As for my little girl.. she’s growing well and getting more and more cheeky … sometimes I just felt that due to work probably I’ve missed out a lot of her growing stage … abit disappointed but I just sometimes its just part and parcel of life where you just have to forgo something in order to earn something…. whenever I missed her I would just relook at her babies’ photo … soon my little baby is gonna turn one… how I wish time could go slower sometimes…

Just when I’ve been reminding myself that I have been mia-ing from my blog too long…. here I am finally doing some posting…. (instead of using the word, updating….)

December flew pass quickly enough without letting me reminisce what had happened ….

and just into the beginning of a new year…. I’ve decided that its time for me to move on …. in terms of career …. probably a change would be better…was what I had in mind …. anyway everything is final now … so I can just take a step slowly at a time …. hopefully I get to have more time with my baby girl this year …. every time I hold on to her… look at her when she’s sleeping …. I just can’t help to think that I might have just missed some of her growing times…. while I’m at work…

but I just that’s the dilemma every working mum faced I guess…. for the sake of the need of bread …. some sacrifice are just required ….

my mind’s in a blank now … so … that’s just all folks…. look forward to the coming Lunar New Year…. (hopefully … I remember to update….as it will be my girl’s first Lunar New Year celebration…)

Recently have been busy with work and weekends were filled by taking care of my little girl … and on my business trip to Xiamen just last week I’ve managed to catch this new Korean drama – The Heirs or The Inheritors online …. the plot was the usual rich guy fallen in love with poor girl stuffs… only thing is they have pretty male and female cast in them …

They also have a lot of wonderful soundtracks in the drama… one of which is sang by my favourite Korean boy group - 2AM’s Chang Min …and the song name is called Moments….

I’ve loaded this song onto my blog …for sharing purposes only of course… I believe the OST is still not yet available for purchase…. if you like the song like I do … please support by purchasing the soundtrack of The Heirs when it is out …. or support the album of 2AM… (heard that they will be releasing their new album, Nocture on 19 November) …. =)

Enjoy!

It has been approximately 3 months into motherhood…. my precious gem has grown from this small cute bundle into this cute cooing baby now…

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darling @ 1 month old…

Life as a mum is really stressful sometimes… but it is also such a wonderful journey… every now and then I just can’t help but look at my baby girl and wonders …. this cutie pie belongs to me (and my hubby of course)

BB use to be feed once every 2 hours when I was breastfeeding her during her 1st month … but gradually my milk flow becomes lesser …not that I did not let her latch on … or express out but the flow just becomes lesser weekly … until I gave up in the end as the very little flow of milk (like abt 20 ml) wasn’t enough to fulfil my girl’s need… she needs about 60 ml at that time… so by her 2nd month I’ve stopped breastfeeding her and she was on formula fully.

Now BB’s 3 month old and she is learning to grab stuffs… and knows how to Ooo and arhh …. sometimes she even had this cute expression of “complaining” …. she recognise faces now …. it is so amazing to watch her development everyday …

The only stressful times were when she needs her feed and her sleep …. she is one impatient BB …. since birth … she has been one impatient baby who cannot wait to be fed …and now even when she needs her sleep … she cannot wait too .. whatever BB wants BB needs to get it immediately… and this sometimes can be quite stressful … as being a first-time mum … we need time to understand what BB’s crying stands for…. at least now I’ve gotten hold of her cries and start to understand what she needs….

and now it is into mid-sept … i’m soon going back to work … how i’m gonna miss my cutie pie when I goes back to work…. now I just hope that time could slow down … it had just seems like yesterday when I gave birth to BB ….

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darling @ 3 mnth old

Since June 11, 2013 – the day my baby girl was born I have been given another role in my life – I’m someone’s mother now…. Still unable to fully grasp the reality of this fact whenever I looked at my baby gal…. The feeling was also indescriblable … The new commitment and responsibility towards another person….

Let me recount the day of my labour …

June 11, 2013 – a Tuesday …. the day before I had been working .. and was still having tots that my labour would only commence at the end of the weeks (my wishful thinking as I had been hoping for the labour to commence on a weekend so that I have sufficient time to clear up my work) who would have know that contractions started that very day…. early morning around 4 a.m. I was waken by a small tinkering feeling of pain in my abdomen …it felt like my menses was about to come.. and it was weird cause I am still pregnant at that point and when I saw a tiny spot of show (well its blood … but when you’re preggy .. they call it a show…) *shrug* beats me why… anyway when I saw it .. I was reminded of what my mum had told me a few days before… if there’s blood… that means i’m about to deliver … I think my doc also told me that during my last visit with her.. but she say only if the bloody discharge is a lot … so after clearing myself up … I went back to slp …(trying) but the abdominal pain intensify within the hour…. really like the usual menses cramp … so at that point I know it should be the contractions… but knowing that usually first timer labour would take quite some time before full dilation … I went to lie down at my couch to bear with the pain …. oh meanwhile.. I told my slpy hubby who was still aslp at that time.. that contractions started … he was so calm and still ask me to try to go to slp … duhz..

By 8 a.m. the pain althou was still bearable … but the timing of the contractions had shorten from an hr to approximately 15 mins ~ 30 mins … my hub had woke up by then … I’ve called my mum and she ask me to go to the hospital… telling her I will try to wait it out … hubby say he will call the doc and ask me to take a shower…after showering.. hub say doc advised that we can go to the hospital already since the timing of the contractions had shorten… she also advised that if the pain is still bearable we can go grab a bite first… of cos first thgy is to had breakfast before going to the hospital … cause we knew (having sought advices from experienced friends) that once in hospital … I won’t be able to eat anything until the baby is out…. so after taking all the needed stuffs… we left house at around 8.30 a.m. and drop by MCD to get breakfast … hub also asked whether I want to eat there or take away …. as the pain was starting to get unbearable.. I told him to get take away better….

Lucky there was not much traffic on our way to the hospital …. we reach there around 9 plus going 10 … Hub had to carry the stuffs and take care of the valet parking …I was then lead away by the personnel at the concierge to the delivery ward…. one of the nurses at the delivery ward attended to me … checking my names… etc and passing me a robe… asking about whether my waterbag broke… think a lot of questions…

after changing into my robe… I was being checked and informed that my waterbag was still intact … but I was only 2 cm dilated….. (gosh … that’s like still a long long way for me to go lor…) and I dunno what gotten into me …. I actually asked the nurse whether I can walk around instead of lying on the bed…. (I bet I must have watched too much of those delivery shows on SCV that makes me think I can tough out the contraction pains…. stupid me)

the nurse after consulting my doc… told me that I am allow to go for a stroll if the pain is bearable…. and even go grab something light to eat…I was all prep up and ready to step out of the ward but the contraction pain strikes me and all I could do was stand leaning against my hub…. the pain was 10 times painful than the usual menses cramp … I couldn’t even talk to my hub let along walk down to grab a bite…. then for the next 1 hr .. all I could do was sit at the couch in the ward and trying to stay awake… and conscious … when the pain comes .. I could only grab my hub’s hand and trying to remb the breathing tactics (which hub keeps telling me at my side) but who the heck would remb man…. seeing me in such pain .. hub keep tell me to just get the epidural … and after deliberating for awhile (actually less than a minute) I just decided to go for the needles…. the fear of the needle compared against the pain … needle it was then …

after signing all sort of consent form… the doc who will relief me of the pain came…. I was pretty nervous as hub was asked to leave the ward for awhile…. but I have to say the nurse was really great and assuring… the doc was a old uncle who seems experienced enough … (based on my glance at him I gaged that he is about 50 to 60??) … he ask me to lie on by side… informed me that there will be slight pain (which was bearable…) and the nurse keep saying breathe in .. breathe out .. and I was also listening to their conversation about the Rocket that China was firing it into space that evening… my brain was pretty occupied by a lot of things at that time… (glad that now I can still remb all that had happened)

The whole epidural process … I think it took like … 15 mins to 20 mins and it was all over…. I was pain-free in like 10 to 15 mins after the process … and gosh it was HEAVEN!!! I could focus after the epidural took effect…. before that I think I was like a mad moaning woman …. all I could do was keep my eyes shut and moan… haha…

The side effect of the epidural kicks in not long …. I was shivering (althou the air-con in the ward was pretty ok) …. Nurse advise me to rest and sleep … as it will still take some time before i’m fully dilated…. My gyn came and ask if I would like to have pertoxin to fasten up my labour … since i’m already on epidural .. I would not feel anything at all … and ok I was …

Then all I remb was falling in and out of slp …. when i’m awake.. all I felt was hungry-ness ….. and the stupid tv keeps showing food stuffs… making me more hungry ….

It wasn’t until around 5 plus … the afternoon-shift nurse checked me and told me I am ready to push (althou I was also informed that I am running a slight fever but was given panadol) … she ask me to try a couple of push and say the baby’s head is coming out soon… she went to inform my doc… who was away at Thomson for another delivery and on her way back… the nurse prep up for delivery… and my mind was actually blank all the while… (probably thinking about food… cos I actually asked the nurse whether I can eat anything after the delivery .. hahahaha)

Once I’m all prep up .. my doc arrived just in time… and asked me to push … (I think I pushed only like 3 or 4 times and the baby’s head was out…all these while thanks to epidural .. I have no feeling at all …) Soon after 2 more pushes … our baby girl – Elyssa arrived at 7 plus…. a huge relief!!!! She weighted 3.7kg … exceeded both the doc and my expectations…. (I had tot that she would weight probably 3.4 or 3.5 …. based on my last visit … but *shrug*)

The doc stitch me up .. informing me that I had a minor tear (since I requested that I do not want to have an episiotomy) which was due to baby’s size … but I was being praised that it was a fast and smooth delivery…. (Thank God / Buddha …. )

Photos was then taken …. I had to stay at the ward for another hour…hubby informed the parents …. then I was pushed to my ward (had to stay at a two-bedded as that day the delivery ward was fully occupied and I was the last one to leave the ward….. all single bedded room had then been occupied)

Ok .. stopping here now…

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