It has been a pretty hectic year since the start of 2016 for me … i have started on my degree course last July …and tomorrow  I will be having my first exam paper …. oh how i hated the tots of having to go for the exam…. i don’t think i’m well prepared for it at all …. starting to doubt myself on what i have gotten into for starting this degree …. i just pray for a smooth pass now..

Furthermore, there has been so many things happening at the same time…. we are moving house … found our new apartment at CCK .. not too near neither it is considered far from my parents’ place … the shift was mainly for my daughter … she’s growing up so fast and we missed so much of her growing stage thus, now we want to move nearer so that we can bring her home every day…and accompany her … sometimes i really missed her naughty little face.

Then, beside the degree and the new house, we are pregnant with our 2nd child. Ain’t this crazy …. I’m currently into 19th week …. feeling so tired every day … My daughter was happy to have a sibling… we were also glad … it was in the plan but i didn’t expect it to be this soon. Perhaps that’s life, expect the unexpected as always.

Anyway .. enuff of my rubbishing … i have to go back to the piles of notes for tomorrow … wish me luck … that’s something i’m desperately in need of…

 

I have been lazy .. a fact that i cannot deny when coming to managing my blog …. busy is no longer a valid excuse … my memory that always failed me is too an undeniable fact … *haha*

Anyway … most of the events that happened in the early 2015 …be it good or bad… i have …long … FORGOTTEN!!!

Right… that’s all because .. the storage volume of my tiny winy brain is pretty much limited… *LOL*

Anyway … it was really not a very good year up until now…

My baby was sick during her bday … it was really terrible … down with high fever and irregular heartbeat then … the doctor had to keep her warded … both me and my mum had to watch her during her “holiday” at the hospital .. it was not a pleasant stay at all … i have never had a good impression of hospital (until the time when i’m in labor) and with that stay with my baby… it worsen the impression even more …. i hope never to go back again with my baby (except perhaps for my second or subsequent labor)

Career has been going well for me too this year … alot of changes …and it is still going on…. nothing much to comment on my career except … just continue to do what i’m doing i guess…. life nver change work wise…

the new event happening in my life current would be that i’m finally studying for a degree… yes after so long i have finally dump all my “passion” …. my “desire” to get a degree… lets not reveal what degree i am getting now .. since i’m pretty half-hearted at the moment … just in case i don’t get it … haha …

the next big thing to look forward to next year would be …. nope … not a second child … not yet …. but

finally a family trip with my mum and dad and also my baby’s first trip overseas…. we are going taiwan next year …. hopefully i remb to update after i come back from the trip ya …. ok that’s all …

My last post had been in October 2014 .. and now we have stepped into the New Year … times really fly past quickly without one’s knowing …

If you were to ask me what had I done in 2014 … I guess the biggest event would be my departure from the firm that I have worked for 8 years … and joining into a new working environment … starting over at a new environment wasn’t easy at all … not to mention that the new firm had undergo big changes too in 2014 … it takes time accepting new changes I guess…

No resolutions had been made for the new year … I think i’m getting old and no longer motivated … perhaps I wanted a more relaxed pace in terms of my career…. but somehow it doesn’t seems to be working for my industry …

For family and health … its the usual .. hoping that everyone in the family would stay healthy (including myself) …. *sign* the weather has been bad since December … and that worsen my sinus condition…

Hopefully into the new year … my life would be smooth sailing throughout …

Have you ever had this feeling of being “drained out” by work … with life … and with everything other thing…??

I’ve been having this feeling lately … “drained out” mentally and physically…. emotionally sometimes… I would asked myself what am I drained away of ? I have always been the usual me … going to work every weekday … trying to clear as much work as possible…trying to find happiness and enjoyment in the work i’m doing …. and looking forward to the last day of the week so that I can spend time with my child … watching her grow everyday …(erm actually is every weekend…cos I usually only get to spend my weekend with her…) and the routine falls back the same way every weeks…

and as time goes by … i’m starting to find that i’m lacking something….(definitely money is one of the thing everyone is lacking..same goes for me ..but that’s not what i’m trying to say) …something which sometimes I find that I cannot put words into it … or perhaps I’m still looking for that “something”….

Just these few days I seems to grasp and understand what i’m missing…. I’m missing the stage of learning…learning something new … missing creativity …. missing innovation … missing new stuffs ….

I have been in this industry for 8 years … although I cannot say its a long time ..but definitely not short either … thinking back … the past few years back in RT I was still able to learn something new at some point of time …. i’m still able to face new challenges in life … but these two years .. life and work seems to become stagnant … it’s not bad sometimes … ya know … going to work at 9 … ending work at 7 or 8 (occasionally at 9) …. going home and slack infront of the TV … but just too bland? I can’t find the right words to describe my life now … probably i’m thinking too much … asking for too much … too demanding?? I find that I’m in need of learning new stuffs … probably going for a new course … engaging in new work (not corp sec) … but yet i’m worrying too much … too many other factors to consider … can I cope with studies and a child? taking new loan for the studies? do I have the time??

I’m finding myself lost at a junction … at one point with the level that I’m with my current work .. I find myself providing too much …. and receiving too little (not monetary terms .. I have to say my current firm is definitely willing to give good pay) … that’s why I’m feeling drained …. draining of all my knowledge and there has been no input of new knowledge …. now that’s the thing i’m currently lacking …. New Knowledge ….

where should I go … what should I do … to get new knowledge and without jeopardising my current stagnant life too much ….

I’m so so terrible and sorry that I am actually updating this blog post after 3 months and after the passing of my big 3 …. yes.. I have officially stepped into the thirty-ish … OMG… it sounded so old… but oh well … its about time I guess… not to say i’m already a mother of one now…

Anyway … life has remained the same … busy with work, accompanying my girl every weekend … and finding time to rest whenever I can … looking after a one year old is no easy job and I have to really feel blissful and thankful to my mum who is looking about my girl on the weekdays … its no easy task especially my little one is so active and out-going … curious and love to tag along … she just loved to explore every little thing at home… which can be really frustrating at times… cos the electric sockets are just at her level and she just tends to go “explore” those stuffs… and did I mention that she got a really bad temper … (wonder who she takes after …*roll eyes*)

at times she can be a real angel while at others …. she’s just a little monster …. *sigh* but I still loves her …

as for my work life….. it remains messy and full of s&^%$ stuffs… its so tiring sometimes that I really feels reluctant going to work …. especially now there’s this new acquisition by the firm … and the world is small enough to be meeting those people whom I have worked with … (and probably did not get that well along I guess) but I guess I remained as who I am … the loner who shall ignore the whole world and just slowly clearing my work….

there’s no longer special things happening … and life is pretty stagnant… probably just work work and work … I hope to really have something special to share .. but till then I guess…

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