Have you ever had this feeling of being “drained out” by work … with life … and with everything other thing…??
I’ve been having this feeling lately … “drained out” mentally and physically…. emotionally sometimes… I would asked myself what am I drained away of ? I have always been the usual me … going to work every weekday … trying to clear as much work as possible…trying to find happiness and enjoyment in the work i’m doing …. and looking forward to the last day of the week so that I can spend time with my child … watching her grow everyday …(erm actually is every weekend…cos I usually only get to spend my weekend with her…) and the routine falls back the same way every weeks…
and as time goes by … i’m starting to find that i’m lacking something….(definitely money is one of the thing everyone is lacking..same goes for me ..but that’s not what i’m trying to say) …something which sometimes I find that I cannot put words into it … or perhaps I’m still looking for that “something”….
Just these few days I seems to grasp and understand what i’m missing…. I’m missing the stage of learning…learning something new … missing creativity …. missing innovation … missing new stuffs ….
I have been in this industry for 8 years … although I cannot say its a long time ..but definitely not short either … thinking back … the past few years back in RT I was still able to learn something new at some point of time …. i’m still able to face new challenges in life … but these two years .. life and work seems to become stagnant … it’s not bad sometimes … ya know … going to work at 9 … ending work at 7 or 8 (occasionally at 9) …. going home and slack infront of the TV … but just too bland? I can’t find the right words to describe my life now … probably i’m thinking too much … asking for too much … too demanding?? I find that I’m in need of learning new stuffs … probably going for a new course … engaging in new work (not corp sec) … but yet i’m worrying too much … too many other factors to consider … can I cope with studies and a child? taking new loan for the studies? do I have the time??
I’m finding myself lost at a junction … at one point with the level that I’m with my current work .. I find myself providing too much …. and receiving too little (not monetary terms .. I have to say my current firm is definitely willing to give good pay) … that’s why I’m feeling drained …. draining of all my knowledge and there has been no input of new knowledge …. now that’s the thing i’m currently lacking …. New Knowledge ….
where should I go … what should I do … to get new knowledge and without jeopardising my current stagnant life too much ….